Self-realization hurts sometimes

I have come a long way in my life.  I have overcome a whole lot of hardships, most self-inflicted, to get to where I am.  Still, on some days, it is harder to look in the mirror than other days.  But I think that is a good thing.  If I was totally content ALL THE TIME, I fear I would not be seeing a true picture of the real me.  I like me...warts and all.  I am stubborn, opinionated...short, loud...(feel free to make a list of adjectives to insert here...I know I am a handful)...but I try.  I try really hard.  I fight for what I believe in, and I try my best to love with all my heart.  I am as imperfect as I am eager to please God...and I think that is where it becomes difficult.

I have a, sometimes overwhelming, need to be liked and that makes me a dork, but it is who I am.  I tend to not be appreciative enough of the gifts that I have been given and that makes me a proud mess...but I am working on it.  I, WAY TO OFTEN, think that my way is the only way...and am regularly proven wrong (sometimes I get it right...LOL) and that is a hard chore for me...but I pray daily for guidance on this one.  I am am impatient...but trying...I am a work in progress...in progress...in progress...but I AM trying...for those whose toes I have stepped on along the way, I am sorry...for others, like me, who have stomped on mine...all is forgiven.

My point...I love with all my heart...and I carry that passion on to other areas where I need to continue to learn about compassion...sharing...and the INCREDIBLE value of the other people in my life...If you are like me, this process hurts sometimes...can feel depressing...but this season will pass into a season of Joy...or of Discovery...or LOVE.

Love yourself...Love one another...God will take care of the rest.

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